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well. its monday. first day back from my 2 week spring break. haha. english was awful, i had a midterm and i got an 87% which is absolutely ridiculous because i never fucking go to class, ever. my math class let out early, so i was like. hmmm computer lab. so i'm walking towards the lab and i see this cute chinese boy that i normally see every once in a while. he's gay for sure, which makes him even cuter. well. hes not cute. but hes cute because hes 1. chinese 2. gay. 3. very fashionable 4. small 5. wears girl pants. and he has his little chinese accent, and its hilarious cause he totally talks like he's gay. so. now that i got that out of my system. i walk into the computer lab. and there is this 46 year old man whos wearing a speedo shirt with logos and crap all over it, with one of those scull cap things that you wear when you ride a motor cycle. thats something you don't normally see when you go to a NORMAL college. god. i can't wait to get out of here. i didn't see graham today either, and that makes me sad. he's the most gorgeous boy that goes here. i swear. i even thought that before i knew that was even him. ahhhh. shut up shayna, i know what you're thinking. probably something along the lines of "T-whats up. i love the jul................iana theory" so as of right now i should be psychology but i skipped. hm. imagine the odds of that. also. i have a huge paper thats due in that class. well, it was due the friday before spring break. needless to say i didn't do it, and i'm still trying to find someone elses paper to turn in. haha. i hope i'm not this bad when i go to cal. i don't think i will be. i hate this place immensely. and my classes are a joke. i know once i get to cal i'll be more serious about school. or drinking. i havent decided. haha.
so. my computer is fixed. but. keith won't let me on it because he is a bastard. apparently, live journal, myspace purevolume and aim are VIRUSES. oh my god. everyone stop using them immediately because your computer is going to crash and your pc will be filled with COOKIES. oh my god. the world is going to end. fuck him. he sucks. but he buys me an ipod for christmas, (which i frequently use because it rules.) and then proceeds to tell me that i cannot use the computer- or download my iTunes program to update my ipod. FUCKER. so now my ipod is useless because he 1. deleted all of my songs and 2. whenever you delete songs off of iTunes, they're deleted off of your ipod the next time you plug it in. so now i am either stuck with the same songs on my ipod for the rest of my life, or whenever i get my computer for school i'm going to have to start all over again and put my songs back on. god. my life is never simple. also speaking of my ipod i am listening to it now as i am in this shitty computer lab, and my left ear piece is broke. no sound is coming out. marvelous.
also, on the subject of broken things. my digital camera is also broken. so for about 2 weeks i have been without my camera. and i am a god damn camera slut. i take that thing every where and take pictures of everything. and now its broken. so no new myspace pictures, no pictures of bands, no retarded photo shoots with any of my friends. that really upsets me. the only thing i have is 4 cds that keith burned for me with about 1000 pictures that i ever had on the computer. which is completely useless to me right now becuase i'm not even allowed on the computer. everything i ever had on that computer is gone. gay.
so i picked up all my mail yesterday at my dads. which consisted of 24 things from cal saying they have open house 45 things from community college telling me i have no more grant money left for summer and i cant take classes unless i pay out of my own pocket and bills from my car accident in february. and also a thing from the DMV saying ineed to send in 36 dollars for my license plate renewa. ughhh. but. at the very end there was one piece of mail left. it was from the college, and it was in that weird paper that taxes come in. and i was like "great what is this" and my dad goes "i 'bet its taxes for the college" so i was like fuck. i have 100 dolllars until next friday. ican't pay no more shit. i open it up-birds sang, the sun shine and flowers sprouted. fucking 863.00
dollar check. yesssss. thats what i'm talking about. it's going straight into my savings account. i got last sem.and use it towards cal. but. i need a new cell phone. i've had this stupid remote control looking thing since i met pat dee. which was about 2 years ago. so i think i'm going to treat myself and buy a new cellular device. :) which i'm sort of excited about. also. i MIGHT buy a new camera. but i'm not sure. i need to save this money incase i get stuck next year and don't have any money. so i might just settle with the cell. also speaking of treating myself. i need to dye my hair again, it looks like crap. its all faded and ihave grey roots. lame. i'm 18 who has grey roots? and everyone is going tanning lately. and i was skimming through some of my pictures from the summer, and i look damn cute when i went to the beach. cause i was tan. so maybe i'll spend 30 dollars for one month so i can melt my skin and smell like sweaty tanning oil. because god dammit i really want a boyfriend. this is getting ridiculous. i keep meeting all these weirdos and theyre totally not for me at all. i'm begining to think only low-life losers like me. who arent in school or works at a pizza shop full time.
i'm also spending way too much time in waynesburg. i hang out with shayna and jason so much i think theyre sick of me. i don't even care. i'm pretty sure jason is the best friend i've ever had in my entire life. me and him have never fought, never bickered anything. we never have a bad time. he knows basically everything about me, and i can finish his sentences. i love him more than anyone i've probably ever met in my life. and then theres shayna, shes one of the best girl friends i've ever had. i can always depend on her for anything, and thats freaking awesome. without her i'd be an absolute mental case.
i really really really miss my old friends though. it's getting to the point where i forget all our inside jokes, i havent hung out with anyone from highschool in a really long time. (with the exception of billie and gena) no one calls me anymore, or i'll call and its sort of akward. i don't know. it makes me really sad actually. i love my friends more than anything in the world, and i just hope they don't forget about me. summer is coming soon, so maybe that will all change. it just sucks becauase everyone moved away and started new lives, and i got stuck with the pits at home. oh well. theres nothing i can do about that. next year is going to be a brand new year, new life new everything. and it's going to be great. i'm finally going to be on my own, away from my chaotic family. which i've needed for so long. i will finally be happy.
hm. theres also alot of really good shows coming.
april 2nd- wings of azrael and a bunch of other band i forget.
april 5th- straylight run- spitalfield
i used to hate straylight, but they grew on me. so im excited for that.
ahhh spitalfield- i saw them less than a month ago. but mark rose is the new love of my life.
april 8th- i got scenes from a movie on one of the play'r shows.
ihavent seen these boys since october. i'm going to piss myself.
april 10th- punchline and my boys in victory lane. (edinboro)
the last time i saw punchline was in charleroi- and it was fucking amazing. plus i'm riding up in the van with the boys, thats always exciting withiin its self.
april 22nd- the boys cd release show in sewickley.
april 26th- MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK
me and marissa saw them at carnegie a few months ago. they get more amazing each time i see them i just want to cry. haha.
may 7th- MIDTOWN.
this new cd rules, it's pretty much my favorite one. so i'm going to rock out like no other. plus the last time i saw them, time and distance played. so i was all up on dereks shit. and i didn't pay much attention. sorry gabe. haha.
may 14th- the fucking blood brothers
hahaha. yessss. these next two months are going to fucking rule. and i'm going to be broke as hell.
gas prices are now. 2.10 when i started this damn journal i was bitching about it being at 1.79 i would kill for 1.79 gas.
okay. this journal entry has been long enough. i'im going to peace out.